I got emotionally low last night...

I want to open up with some vulnerability. 

I feel amazing… most of the time. I'm really motivated right now. I feel like I'm in my lane. I am fired up about helping as many as possible step into their ultimate purpose and unlock their fullest potential. 

With that said, I got low last night. All the fears, worries, and anxieties that entangle all of us, got a strong hold on me. I asked myself "Will this work?", "Is what I'm doing making/going to make a difference?" "Do I have the financial margin, to continue going after my dreams."

I felt like I was sinking...fast. 

As the time for bed approached, I even began to debate whether I should stick to my next morning routine: wake up at 5:30am, Read my bible, pray, journal, and do my morning run.

Thats what are fears do, they paralyze us, and whisper that we don't have what it takes...then it leads to you making decisions that make those fears come true. 

Thankfully, I thought of those in my circle, my accountability. I said to myself, we're only as great as our sum effort. They're counting on me as much as I'm counting on them. 

I laid down, and with the room dark, I began to pray. I said "God, I'm scared...I'm giving it to you. I'm uncertain of the future...But you're already there. Help me sleep well tonight, give me peace." I rolled over and set my alarm for 5:30am. 

The night went fast...I woke up, went to the bathroom, and said, "I'll do my scripture reading, drink my coffee, but I'm gonna run later. I'm too tired, I need a rest."

As I read scripture, I felt my soul and mind renewing. As 6am approached I heard a faint whisper, "Dont stop now, keep moving." I changed, and headed out the door for my run. 

I blasted the Switchfoot "Beautiful letdown" album, and continued to feel my spirits rise. I finished my run, covered in sweat, with a feeling of accomplishment and pride. 

Stepping into the pursuit of our highest aim for ourselves is extremely hard work...it's why so few do it. 

Here's my take away. 

Without strong practices that anchor us to taking steps toward our vision, we become wanderers. In that space the feelings that I had last night are even stronger. But because I didn't give my self an option for doing my first practice, 5:30 wake up, it led me to my next practice, time with God. Leaning into that practice led me to do the next one, my run, and now it has snowballed into the other practices that I have for the day! 

Even anchored deeper is the accountability I have set up with major players in my life. Let the next right move, fuel the rest. Life will always be full of uncertainty, however, thats not where our focus goes. 

Keep your vision clear, keep others involved, set up the necessary practices that pull you forward, and don't give up!